Thursday, December 16, 2010

Here Goes

It’s been a whirlwind week of doctor visits and medications, phone calls and directions. Tomorrow I will be going in for our egg retrieval / beginning of fertilization process. We have 15 viable follicles, which is excellent – given my age I responded well to the medication. For once, my body totally kicked ass!

I’m honestly much more anxious for this than my re-sectioning surgery last spring. Once that decision was made, I was at peace. We have so many hopes and “what if’s” this time around coupled with finite chances. I’m trying to temper my optimism because what if I wake up tomorrow and I learn my eggs are duds? Or many of my follicle sacks were empty? Or things aren’t fertilizing well? It’s hard to make yourself have low expectations – frankly, I think it’s a bit futile because I was eyeing cribs at Target this week and dreaming up nursery layouts, all in a hazy baby bubble in aisle 14.

What will be, will be. I know we’ll make it through it, whatever the outcome. It’s actually nice to go through this during the holiday season: High spirits? Hope and joy? Sounds just about right.


  1. Kathryn,

    My fingers and toes are all crossed! Go for it!

    Love, Cyndy

  2. How'd it go? Is your ET date set?

  3. Hi Lauren!

    I'll post something soon (today, or sometime this week). Unfortunately I have no good news! Bah! Our cycle was canceled due to our fertilized eggs dying/not dividing. Par for the course, I suppose. ;-)

  4. Ugh! Bummer! I look forward to seeing what's next.